The Macabre Brat

My dad wanted to go to the Popeye’s near us so he could get himself a chicken dinner. He said he doesnt have enough money to get everybody a chicken dinner so he is just getting a chicken dinner for himself. I told him that he should think about other people too and not just think about himself. He told me that I just wanted a chicken dinner too… Fried chicken is the grossest food that I have eaten and wouldnt eat it even if I was starving… Hell I cant stand eating fast food period because its nasty tasting, smells horrible, makes me sick, and has a ton of additives. Thank you but I rather not poison myself with the food I eat. I also also eaten so much chicken I dont like it anymore.

I keep telling my dad to stop wasting money on junk food but he is like its his money and he will buy whatever he wants…

I cant wait until Im able to leave here

I think Master is a procrastinator. Whenever I need to do something I usually do it right away unless Im busy or not feeling well. In school I always finished projects and papers as soon as possible. Its never good to rush because there is a higher chance of errors and the quality will be lower than if you didnt need to rush. Though one time I purposely waited to do a paper at the last minute just so I could experience pulling an all-nigther… I never did that again because I was dead and I slept through most of my classes.

I dont mind when Master gives me things last minute but I would prefer if I had ample time to make sure that I was able to do as best as possible. When I have to rush I might miss things and usually there isnt time to go over what I have done… Also when Im tired my English is horrible… I hope I didnt mess up too much last night. I tried my best but most of the things I could tell what I wrote and sent him and what he wrote himself… I could understand what I wrote… What my Master wrote I was like huh, I understand these words are English but none of this makes any since…

Even though I havent had any children yet, I seem to be a natural with kids.

The last family reunion we went to my brother bought his youngest kid from his second marriage. At the end of the reunion when my brother was saying good bye; my nephew was reaching out for me, I though he wanted a huge but he wanted a kiss. I was the only person he kissed too… My mom was so jealous… and all I did was feed my nephew watermelon…

I feel the same with this kitten. Its so small, a little bigger than my hand, but it loves me a lot. Im so happy that it slept with me. It even kissed me on the lips a few times, it did hurt, but I dont care; its love.

I cant wait till me and Master are able to start our own family

As long as Master doesnt give up on me; I wont give up on him ❤

Strange thing about me is besides NCIS I dont ever watch American tv shows.

American music I dont listen to either except for Marilyn Manson. Cant stand talentless people that are only a hit because their songs are like a virus that spreads around. I want songs that mean something, heavy on imagery and sound awesome without needing to to heavily tuned.

The song that I use as my theme song is this…

Also love this song by him too…

This is why I love vampires; because love is eternal, ever lasting, never dieing…

All in all America is bad, but there are worst places. America is full of brainless drones that let others think for themselves. Lies are turned in truth as long as you are willing to pay the right price

Oh… I cant forget to add this song to my favorites too ❤

1. My past: Even though my past wasnt good or happy, Im still thankful for it because without it I would not be the same person.

2. My mom: Without her I doubt I would be alive.

3. My stubbornness and fierce loyalty: Without these I couldnt be in an LDR.

4. My Master: Despite everything he is the best thing to ever to happen to me. I couldnt even see myself being with anybody else but him.

5. And this is well yeah…. Im thankful for seeing this (though I much rather worship my Master’s body. I will just imagine this is what my Master looks like)

Today is the first snow of the season. I had to go out and buy some things for tomorrow so I couldnt stay inside. Since I dont have anything but slippers, dress shoes, and running shoes; I had to borrow my dad’s size 13 huge yellow rubber boots. They are hard for me to walk in because they are so big but they kept my feet dry and warm…

I did get a lot of looks from people in the grocery store because the boots made me walk funny. The way I have to walk in those boots kinda reminded of using the Stair Master machine when I used to go to the gym. I hated the Stair Master so much; loved the elliptical soooo much though.

I did make sure I was warm enough. In Fact when I was walking back home, my glasses where fogging up and I was burning hot.

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I havent heard anything from Master yet. I wish I didnt miss his calls a few days ago 😦

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This is also the picture of the light bulb when I was trying to change it earlier today. Never had a light bulb that the glass part separated from the metal part before

The light bulb in the lamp in the living blew and I tried changing it but I cant get the bulb to turn at all. I told my dad about it and he was like well keep trying, he didnt even offer to help. I have told my parents that this rain is making my body feel like I was ran over by a train. Moving makes me be in even more pain.

I dont even know why I even tried asking him for help

Both my dad and my brother both pass out when they see blood, needles, and generally doesnt like doctors and hospitals. My brother threw up when the doctor sawed off his cast when he broke his arm. He also passed out when our mom got out of surgery a few years ago. My dad never helped any of us kids when we got hurt bad. I remember our mom was the one to always clean and dress any wounds we got.

Maybe this whole I hate seeing blood and needles is either a learned behavior or else its something in the genes.